Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Empty Lockers
Why is it that we are so interested in what everyone else seems to be doing or saying about everyone else? How did gossip become a language of its own, twisted into words of exciting, colorful expressions, gasps and wild energetic prose? How did the latest People and InTouch magazines become two of the most-read, must-have periodic publications in North America? Is our society so small-minded and trite as to forget how hurtful rumors and gossip can be? I admit it, I'm guilty of buying those little morsels of useless, colorful versions of other people's lives. In fact, I had a subscription for many years. Thinking back to high school, I realized I was never bullied or "picked on" neccessarily. However, I was talked about ... constantly ... by everyone I knew. Between my parents grounding me for rumors from people at church saying I was "the bad kid", to boys at school telling my boyfriend not-so-nice things that had never happened. I wished I had been bullied, beaten up, shoved into lockers. Now, ripe with age and supposed wisdom, I still experience my fair share of tasteless fiction at my expense, and it still manages to get to me, corroded as ever, haunted like those empty lockers I wished I had been shoved into. Funny thing, though, it still feels like high school and I'd still rather be shoved into an empty locker.
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Yes, I remember those days. To err on the side of hope ... at some point it stops hooking you, or at least it did with me. The last rumor that actually affected me was about 2 or 3 years ago, I thought it was funny at first and then I got mad. It seems to change when you hit 25 years old ... don't know why! Maybe it's that my circle of friends has changed, but maybe it's that I have reached the point of something resembling stability ... Oh SHIT! Quick! Create a crisis!! Ha! It's really that bad but is definitely something I fought for years.
ReplyDeleteSo, can you not get out of the inside of a locker? I mean I've seen it on TV but is that true? Sounds traumatizing to me!!
A symptom of the past rears its ugly head and tempts chaos once again, yet this time amongst a "safety net" of good friends and people. However, instead of going for the empty locker myself, I realize that if someone feels the need to bank on fiction at my expense, they are probably the one in need of an empty locker, not me. LOL
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